Precipice

Apprehensive
Standing on the precipice
Not sure
Of whether to go forward
Or not
Hopes for the future
And fear
That my dreams won't become
Reality
That I will be left alone
Suffocated
By those that love me
Afraid
That love will never find me
Or it will
Only for me to push it away
And cause pain
Better for me to self inflict
Than love
And break an innocent heart
Repeatedly
To take a chance and
Lose it
Than regret a lifetime
Of no risks
Standing on a precipice
Apprehension
My choice needs to be made
Jump
Or dream a life that could have been
It begins.



Charlotte Gardiner - July 2006