Undecided

i can feel it
building up inside
this tension i just can't ease
its a pain in my heart
and a cloud on my brain
and i wish it would go
'cause i'm going insane
there's this vice on my neck
it keeps getting tighter
every time i hear your name
i wish that i knew
all the things that you do
when i'm not there with you
i trust you
i know i trust you
don't think i don't trust you
but its not about trust
its about me
and the way that it feels
when you throw my heart down
then you pick it back up
and you dust it all off
then give it straight back
with that look in your eyes
that says
"what? no harm done"
so i laugh and i giggle
and i'll put it back right
holding back the pain and the tears
'cause you're breaking my heart
when you're looking at me
then you look back at her
like you just can't decide
well come on lover
what do you want me to say?
okay, sure, whatever, come back any day?
thats just not going to happen
not this time anyway
what i want you to do
is simply make up your mind




Charlotte Gardiner - February 2006